Finally finished my memoir! Updates of what's been happening

Well, I haven't written an entry in a long time. Since April I've been working full time on my memoir. I've actually been writing it since July Fourth weekend 2012. Anyway, I've finished it and the kindle version is on sale here http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00NMXL3OE. Sales haven't been great so far, but I have high hopes. It's really the book I wanted to write, and I think I wrote it well.

Actually, it was interesting reading it for the first time on my kindle app on my phone. I was able to read it as a book not as a manuscript and it really is a page turner. I lived it and I still found it hard to put down because I wanted to know what happened next.

Writing it, I thought of it as the story of a very tumultuous lesbian friendship/romance, and I think at it's core that's what it is, but it's also the story of how someone finally comes to the realization that they need to transition, and all the factors that influence that realization.

It also is to a certain extent my answer to the TERFs who consider me (and always will consider me) to be a delusional straight man.

Okay, if I'm a straight man I have to be the most fabulous straight guy ever.

So I called the book Straight Boy/Queer Girl and I think it's going to go over really well if I can just get people to read it.

Can you tell I'm excited about it? Sorry for the sales pitch, but seriously you should go out and buy it for your kindle, smartphone, tablet, or computer.

Anyway, in other news:

That trans guy I was crushing on a couple years ago and wrote about a bit was in Babe's the other night. We're still friends. It's weird though how much body chemistry and sexual attraction really influence my opinion of someone. The first time I saw him after he started T, I really just wasn't attracted to him anymore.

And this comes from someone trans, who always thought of him as a guy and who really had some serious questions about her own sexuality because I was so attracted to him.

Anyway, I'm not anymore, so I guess my second puberty ended like my first. I'm not into dudes, even though it all got really confusing for a while.

It's interesting to know that about myself. I mean really who else can be like "well I'm a lesbian but when I'm in puberty I'm a little more bisexual." Which is also really weird to think, because since my identity has kinda leveled out again (post-second adolescence) I really really find male bodies gross.

I see these shirtless men on facebook (especially if they have muscles or hair) and I'm just like "Ewwww no one wants to see that."

But anyway, I'm digressing a little. There is someone I've been interested in. Quite a bit actually, but I don't think I have much of a chance  and I think I'm ready to move on.

It's a shame though. She's this girl I was so attracted to when I used to see her and then all of a sudden last fall we became good friends. Like really good friends, and I'm like Holy Shit! This person I'm really attracted to is really awesome and fun to hang out with and likes spending time with me.

Well she's basically dating her roommate/ex, and she's never in town, and I get the impression that if I ever had any chance with her at all I don't anymore.

But here's the thing, I already destroyed one really good friendship because I couldn't appreciate what I already had (wrote a book about that).

Which is pretty much what always happens.

I'm not in a terrible mood though. I rewrote my OkayCupid profile essay, and here's something I know you'll find interesting, my hormone levels have been increased. I'm starting to bust out of my D cups...ehhh.

Ohhhh! and what did I call him? Jayson the flamer? Well he showed up at Babe's a couple of weeks also. Apparently he's married. What!? Him!? That flaky piece of shit can find someone willing to marry him and I can't find anyone willing to date me? Anyway he tried to talk to me like he always does, and I ignored him like I always do, but at least he wasn't as pushy. And from what the bartender told me, he says he's clean.

Well sorry this isn't my best entry ever, but now that I'm done with my first book, I'll pay more attention to this blog. I'll have another entry to write soon.